arg i'm a pirate.

i took the best nap EVER today. i love sleeping. i guess eva came in and was talking to katie for a while, i had no idea. i woke up when carla came in aroung noon. oh it was glorious. and then we went and got lunch in the smaug... seriously best lunch ever. i was soooooo hungry.

i'm dropping my european history class today. in a way i'm disappointed in myself, but at the same time there's this huge feeling of relief. it's one less thing i have to stress about right now. i'm really trying to manage my stress these days, it's been kind of out of control lately. i'm always really stressed out though, i should be used to it by now. but that's just the way it is i guess.

yaaaaaaarrrrrgh it's hot in here. why is it 85 degrees in minnesota in october!?!?!?!?

katie and i were watching america's funniest home videos last night, just like we do every sunday. it was one of the christmas episodes. i want it to be christmas right now. but i don't know what kind of christmas i'm going to have this year, since dad doesn't have a job. i know he's getting frustrated, because mom told me he applied to borders the other day. i said he should just go back to UPS, where he was before Jay's, but he's getting a little old and haggard to work there. in a way i feel sorry for him. he's worked every day of his life, and now all of a sudden he's stuck sitting at home all day. and he's not one of those people who likes to sit back and relax. he feels inadequate if he's not working. and he's got me here in school, tom working at Hope, mom bringing home the only paycheck, and matt going off to college next year. it has to be killing him. he's trying to get his teaching certificate again, and i really hope that works out for him. he's a really good teacher, and i think he'd like to go back to it.

i need to get a job. this week i'm going to menards and target to fill out applications, so hopefully i'll get something here, and then when i go home i'm going to reapply to joann's, petsmart, petco, and borders.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i needed that.