at this point...

i haven't really posted in a while, but i've been doing a lot of writing on my own lately. just stupid stuff, nothing incredibly insightful or important. but anyway. i had a weird identity crisis monday night/tuesday morning. i seem to be having them more and more often lately. is multiple identitiy crisises (what the hell is the plural of that shit?) within relatively short periods of time healthy? if it isn't then i'm screwed. but anyway... things that i've been up to:
1. paying off a speeding ticket
2. buying a shit load of text books for a shit load of classes
3. studying like a mad woman
4. not getting enough sleep
5. skipping two meals a day on accident
oh man, that reminds me, i have a thing of honey nut cheerios in my backpack... mmm dinner!
6. not watching nearly as much tv as i used to (see number 3)
7. hating a lot of things and people
8. missing everyone from home, a few in particular that i got really used to having around
man these honey not cheerios are really hittin the spot
9. using sarcasm more than i should
10. going through crazy moments and cutting all my hair off
11. wishing i was an individual
12. eating a lot of cheerios. no, seriously.
13. wishing everyone else wasn't as stressed out and bogged down as i am so we could have fun like we used to, but if i go back to old patterns things will not be good.
14. i have to stop with these damn cheerios.
15. forcing myself to be offline sometimes. i need to learn to be unavailable.
16. actually paying attention in class, which may be why things seem so boring now
17. lusting. baaaaaaaaad juju
18. trying to find myself. this one isn't working out so well, but it's been in progress for like 3 years now. check back with me later.