i've changed. a lot.

i wish people broke into song in everyday life. i think eva and i are going to valley view this weekend, and i have the strongest urge to go there and stang in the middle of all the stores singing. everyone would be so much happier if random musical numbers were injected into our culture. plus i would be very popular.

i really wish i was in chorus right now. i miss singing. i really do. i talk shit chorus and my voice, but singing is the only thing i've ever been good at, and i just gave it up because boyd ruined my senior year. and i know katie is sick to death of my singing all the time like a complete idiot. from now on, whenever i'm alone, instead of talking to myself, i'm going to sing. it might be good for me. and i want to start strengthening my voice again, as well. it's really gone to crap since senior year. i haven't taken care of it at all.

god, i was so hardcore into choir, and i don't think i ever even realized it. the way i talk and use my voice now, i never would have considered in high school. and i've completely lost my ability to use all of my vocal cords at once. my yodelling is gone. my head voice is completely nonexistant, i would be an alto now instead of a soprano. on the other hand, my vibratto is actually stronger and i have a lot more control, but the tone just isn't as clean. i don't know, it just seems like since i quit choir i'm a completely different person, and i don't really have a "thing" anymore.

time to do some discovery.

it's snowing right now.