everything is ending. ick.

My opinions of some people have changed a lot in the last 24 hours, I must say. A person I thought was really cool and interesting and wanted to get to know a little better turned out to be kind of an ass hat, and a person I had written off a bit as just a passing acquaintance is really starting to become a friend. It's interesting how things like that go. And I'm pretty sure one of them is reading this right now, too. DON'T YOU WISH YOU KNEW WHICH ONE YOU ARE!?!?!? Yeah, you're full of yourself and bitchy and bipolar. Woops, figured out which one of them it is!!! But at the same time, that could describe a lot of people in my life right now. This is targeted at one person specifically, though, and I'm trying to think of a way to narrow down the field a little without revealing too much. Let's just say this person is EXTREMELY new in my circle of friends. Except they're not really a friend. Blah. I just want to be done with it.

So moving on... the semester is almost over. Tomorrow is the last day of classes. I'm glad for it to be over, but I don't want to leave my friends. They've become my family, and I don't know what I'm going to do without them for 3 months. You people are seriously the best thing that's happened to me this year. And my roommate... I've had some bad luck with those in the past, but this year has been exquisite. Sundays are going to be odd without you, and our late-night laughing fits, little people big world, you and your popcorn/fruit snacks, dance parties, dreading thursdays, our hump day problems. photo shop extravaganzas!!! I'm going to miss it all so much!!!! But don't worry, we'll make next year even better, and June 25/26 is going to be da bomb diggity!!! No doubt!!

Goulet.

It's hilarious how stupid I can be sometimes. Honestly, I need to work on thinking before I speak. It's a problem.

I didn't sleep all weekend. Let me clarify. I slept for 3 hours Saturday morning, not Friday night at all, then I didn't sleep until this morning again. So I kind of went 38+ hours without sleep for no reason whatsoever. And then I didn't get a lot of sleep this morning so I'm kind of loopy and out of it. So im me for a really great conversation right now.

I enjoy new friends, and new almost-friends. Hopefully some of the almost-friends will turn into friends friends over time, because one can never have too many friends. Friends, friends, friends, friends. Friends. This is a really stupid entry, I can't think of anything to say.

Too many people know about what happened on campus Friday, I will say that. I kept saying I didn't want to tell anyone, but for some reason it just keeps coming up. And then today I went to hear a lecture about rights and liberties on campus and Professor Downs brought up the EXACT INCIDENT as an exapmle. He wasn't talking about me, obviously, I'm never met the man before in my life, but still. And Rick was sitting behind me, and he heard about it this morning, so he kind of snorted/giggled, and I turned around and looked at him and was highly embarrassed. I feel like I'm making a really really big deal out of nothing. It just made me feel completely violated and unsafe, that's all. I shouldn't feel that way on campus. I'm going to stop talking about this now. It's depressing and no one wants to hear about it.

Man, I started this semester with the intention to stop all of my bad habits, but now I'm going back to them more and more. Well, one inparticular, but it's become kind of a social thing. ovaiubaiubakbiubawiubwaiuvbailbvaiubeaoihg. The end.

I've been drinking a lot of coffee lately. And it seems like every time I go into Mugby Ristow or Jared is there. Or randomly, out of nowhere, Rick. I wish I had some place like that back at home, where I could go in and be guaranteed to know someone. Belmont Surplus is kind of like that for me, and when I'm there i make new friends too, but it's just not the same. I'd insert another tremor, but I think the previous one was good enough.

This is really random.



Dear Eva,

I miss you bunches.

FACE!!!!!!!!

It's been an interesting weekend. And it's not over. Friday was really low-key, sat around watching movies, recklessly emailing, etc. Pretty boring all together.

But yesterday, oy. It was Katie's birthday, so her mom and friend Joanna drove down from St. Paul and we all went to dinner at Jefferson's. We came back here and chatted for a while, ate some pie, then decided that we needed to go to Mugby. Delish. I really do love their caramel fraps. Ristow showed up with a bunch of papers to grade, which for some reason is hilarious to me. Not the way I would picture him spending a Saturday night. Afterwards Katie, Tasha and I watched Capote (very very very good!!!) and lounged a bit. Tasha left, but then randomly imed and asked if I wanted to go for a drive. We ended up at Garvin at 12:30, stayed for about an hour, then took the scenic route back through 43. A late night trip to Wal*Mart was decided upon, even though Wal*Mart is evil and people should stop shopping there. We found a great book about Dick Cheney, then raided the bargain DVD bin, picking up some must haves. We wanted to watch them, so we grabbed a bunch of energy drinks and headed back to the 1st Morey-Shepard lounge. By this time it was like 3:30, but neither of us was the least bit tired. So we watched Cabin Fever, which is possibly the best movie I have ever seen in my entire life. Honestly. So campy and horrible that everyone should see it and worship it. PANCAKES!!!!!!! Then we watched The Sweetest Thing, which is probably one of my more favorite movies, it just has some great one liners. By the time that ended it was 6:30, so we went for a walk around the dorm, decided to come back and take showers, and that is where you find me know. Took a quick nap around 8ish, did ma hurrrrr, now just sitting around... waiting for my meeting... which I'm not exactly looking forward to... because it's going to make me think about last Thursday. *shudder* Kind of want to forget that. But whatever. Not dwelling, I promise.

Congrats!

I'm the new Vice President of the Winona State University College Democrats.

Why do I feel like people don't want me to be?

Whatever. I'm kind of happy. I just want to know who that third vote was, and I wish I could have seen Sarah and Ryan's faces, Katie said they looked a bit upset.

I need coffee.

Oh, and congrats to the rest of the new exec board!!
President- Kendric Moore
Secretary- Tasha Swalve
Treasurer- Katie Weiss

EDIT: just found out I am possibly the first FEMALE VP of Dems. That's really effin cool. And after some much needed reassurance, I'm really getting pumped. This could be a big year...

it's that kind of night.

I'm in an honest sort of mood. What do you think of me? What question have you always wanted to ask me? I don't like the person I'm on the verge of becoming, and I want your input. What should I do differently? What should I be sure not to change as I try to figure out just who I think I am? I really want to know. So leave a comment. Be completely honest. Attach your name only if you want. You don't have to have a blogger to comment, and you can do it anonymously. I'm not going to sit here and try to figure out who said what. So please tell me, I'm very interested to see where I stand with everyone...

It's a good thing I'm a fan of second/third chances.

Haha my blog is famous. People I don't know read it. That makes me feel the need to type correctly from now on. I need to get in the habit anyway, so let's go with it.

I finally got registered for classes today. I'm kind of bummed because a lot of the classes I need for my major were filled, and I'm just going to have to be vigilent all summer and try to nab them if they open up, but on the other hand I'm in a lot of classes that I'm really excited about. Most of them are for my newly decided upon Political Science minor, and I can't wait to start my State and Local Governments class... especially since I am now thoroughly embroiled in both of them.

Also... I signed up for both of the Phys Ed classes I need to graduate, so Katie and I are taking *drum roll please* T'ai Chi and Bowling!!! I'm excited, and at the same time dreading it. I am a horrible bowler, despite my recent bowling accomplishment (which I love to rub in people's faces), but Katie's doing it with me, so it should be fun.

I got some funny news today, too. Katie was talking to a girl in her Micro Computers class about living in East Lake next year, and Kendric said something about living there next year too, turns out he's 4 doors down from us!! Haha! We already know our neighbors! I said something about having craft nights with Kendric, and he got a little scared and asked Katie how I knew about that. I guess he doesn't remember that we had an entire conversation about it at the DFL convention back in March. But it's ok. He also showed Katie the finished brochures for Dems and she said they look really cool. I'm excited to see them, Tasha and I put a lot of work into those. A lot of stressing about stupid things and mundane details. Anyway...

Things are all starting to come to a close, and it feels weird to admit that I don't really want this semester to end. Except for the classes. But I feel like I finally found my place here. I never told anyone, but I had filled out all of the applications and had been accepted to transfer to a school back in Illinois at the end of the year, but I think I'm going to give Winona another chance. Things are starting to fit and I like it. All of a sudden I'm making all of these new friends and meeting people and getting involved, instead of just sitting around complaining that I never have anything to do. So this is good. I'm staying in Winona. It would be hard to be the VP of college dems here while attending Illinois State.

What I Did On My Easter Weekend By Emily Maguire

i was completely dreading going home over the weekend, but in the end i'm really glad that i went. and it was nice to see eva thursday night too. picnics in random wisconsin parking lots are most excellent.

friday was probably the best conversation i've ever had with my parents. both of my brothers were gone, so it was just the three of us for dinner (yes, we still eat dinner together as a family every night. strange, i know...) and it ended up lasting for almost 3 hours, just sitting around talking about politics and world news and the current state of everything. i love having liberal parents who feel the same as me on a lot of stuff, but at the same time allow me to teach them new things and explain why i feel differently about certain issues. i don't know.
after that i went to see take the lead with kat. antonio banderas. ballroom dancing. it doesn't get much better than that. except that it does. infinitely. it was nice to see her, though. and i will forever think of her when anyone brings up don johnson, billy idol, and the mile high club.

honestly, though, saturday was probably the best of all. we dyed easter eggs in the morning, but we got a little "creative" and it ended up lasting about 2 hours. we all got hungry about halfway through so dad made lunch. he sits down with his sandwich and his beer, and i turn to greet betsy, who has just decided that my foot is her new favorite chew toy. so, in my best possible pauly shore voice i hollar "hey, buuuuuuuddy!" all of a sudden dad gags and snorts, then runs to the sink and spits something out. i was like "i know my pauly shore is good, but it really wasn't that funny..." "no it wasn't funny at all, i just drank the yellow egg dye!" i guess a frosty pint of beer and a mug of yellow vineagar water look very similar. needless to say, his entire mouth was yellow for a couple hours.
the rest of the day i spent with freebs. endless hours in target and kohls = emily is happier than she has been in a while. and portillos with her and nick. ooooohhhhhhh, portillos. what a place. ooooohhhhhhh nick. he smiles too much. at me. freaks me out.
and THEN there's frank. i hadn't seen him since january and missed him like crazy. i really shouldn't go that long without seeing him, it's bad for me. we went to nordstrom rack because he needed some shoes, and ended up trying on some disgusting clothes.

BUT I DON'T WANNA BE A PIRATE!!!


i really hope the two of us get to spend more time together over the summer, it's odd not seeing your best friend for 3 months.

oh yah!! i almost died yesterday!!! i really shouldn't be so excited about this, it's kind of weird. and probably not as big a deal as i'm making it out to be. but anyway, as i was driving back to school yesterday i got caught in a huge storm in wisconsin, between madison and the illinois border. it was alright for awhile, just blinding horizontal rain, but then i started seeing a lot of lightning. i looked north across one of the fields just as lightning was striking, and saw a tornado on the other side of the field. que me freaking out in my car. i could tell it was heading in my general direction, so i sped up and passed an ass load of cars and found an overpass, where i parked and crawled into the backseat. because i'm a wuss. a big wussy wuss. after about 45 minutes things had calmed down so i continued my drive. and that's my story.

it's like blog bulemia.

3 times in one day? that's got to be some kind of records for me. but this one's going to be pretty damn candid, so watch out. a lot of name dropping.

i started this blog so my friends in chicago and elsewhere could read it and see what was going on for the 7 months of the year they don't see me. which is big, because when i'm not in winona, i'm with my friends 24/7. so yah, things on here are really in depth and coherent (most of the time) because they're curious. lately, though, i've been compromising detail for fun because more and more and different people have started reading. people i don't know well, possibly one of my professors (if you're reading now, please throw out the green shirt you wore today, it's disgusting), random people who just happen to scroll through and find this. i don't know, it all of a sudden seems like i'm tayloring posts. self-censoring, if you will, and i don't like it.

so what am i trying to say here? yah, i don't know. i guess what i'm trying to say is that all of a sudden i don't feel like i can be honest anymore. i'm not blaming anyone in particular, by no means, more like a combination of factors. i have no idea what i'm talking about. i'm rambling. because this is weird. and i'm weird. but if you're reading this, and every have before, you already know that. that's just how i roll.

stephen colbert just said, "just wait until the pleasure starts" and i flashed back to this time katie, andrea, carla and i were in jared's room and he layed down on his bed and held up his plastic sword and said, "let me get into a position that's pleasing for all of you." i think i had only know jared for like a month, too. then again i've only known tasha for a month or so. i haven't known my winona very long, especially not compared to my friends from home. but for some reason it seems that my friends are my friends for a year, or for a decade. what? i don't know. shut up. i'm confused. why did i start talking about this?

i'm bored. with being here. all of a sudden things have gone from really amazingly fun and interesting to sucking hardcore. i need a big change. something to happen. a new friend maybe, or for someone from home to show up here (hint hint, frank...). kavrobvaoiba;oibwe;okibsdvkb vaiobas;oihb;oihsagoihbvao;ibaoihva;oi. that's what i have to say about my head right now. i'm annoyed with how annoying and boring i can be. i want to be that fun, interesting, witty person, but for some reason i can't be with new people.

honestly, i imagine meeting new people and just being really cool and funny and saying all the right things, and then there are moments like saturday and monday where i open my mouth and complete shite comes out. my jokes end up not being funny (and people constantly rub it in my face...), or i say somethig that offends someone, or just make a complete ass of myself and share too much. the worst is when i insult the people i'm talking to without realizing it. so if that's happened to you, i appologize. it's just me being nervous.

and now that i've embarrassed myself even more than i thought possible, i'll stop posting for today.

do it. you know you want to...

hahahahahahahaha. get the ball rolling!!!

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It's that time again...

Spring. It's here. And with it comes registration, finals, an eagerness to be outside, and of course the inevitable drama that only the end of these last 8 months can bring. I've found, in my MANY years of college, that these things are unavoidable, but in the end very easily resolved. So here, for your reading pleasure, I present Emily Maguire's 10 Step Guide To Ending The School Year Drama Free.

1. Just be nice. Now is not the time to drag out all of the petty problems you've been having with people since October (unless of course one of you is graduating or transfering, and you're guaranteed never to see that person again). Keep things pleasant, avoid topics that would bring up animosity among members of your inner circle.

2. Pay attention to your classes. If you're busy studying like a madman, there's less of a chance that you'll say/do something to cause controversy. Besides, who wants to add a bad GPA onto friend drama? Not me, that's for sure.

3. Remember that everyone can read your away message. I'm guilty of this little gem right here. Sure, a witty, well timed away message can be effective in getting your point across, but once you put it out there you can't take it back. I know of several friendships that have ended because of away messages, and one great situation where away messages are the prefered method of conveying one's distaste about their current living situation to the world (including the people it's directed, very obviously, towards).

4. Make aure your friends know exactly where they stand with you. Personally, I don't hate ANYONE right now, and am glad to say there isn't a single one of my friends I need to confess bad feelings to. But I have worked hard at this, and I urge you all the do the same. Keep in mind number 1, but if there are big issues with someone, let them know. More than likely it's something they should know, so just be honest. Make sure to acknowledge their feelings as well, though. Chances are they've got something they need to talk to you about.

5. DO NOT under ANY CIRCUMSTANCES ask your friend why they are walking in a certain direction if it is in any way out of the ordinary. Especially if she is off her meds. This just leads to getting kicked off the island...

6. If you feel like you are about to explode, take some time for yourself. The weather is great, go read a book outside on the lawn, get away from people and reflect on what is bring on the A-Bomb feeling. It's probably something that can be easily solved and conflict avoided. Think before you blow up. Besides, while you're figuring out how to make your next move, you can get a killer tan. And who can be mad at a tan person? Strike that last question...

7. Wear happy clothes. This doesn't seem like it makes sense, but if you're wearing clothes that make you feel good, it instantly puts you in a better mood, which puts everyone else in a better mood. And besides, if you wear clothes that make you feel good and you end up spreading that, you could even get a date. Or at least a booty call...

8. Stay active. Keep busy, get involved, follow a friend to a club meeting, start a pickup game at the park, anything to keep moving. Because as we all know, excercising increases endorphins, and endorphins make you happy, and happy people just don't kill people!!

9. Dance it out. A spontaneous dance party is one of the best ways to get out any residual anger, and just have a good time. Laughing is good for the soul, and unless you're hanging out with Mikhail Barishnikov there will probably be something to laugh about. This also plays into number 8. And you know what, sometimes it just feels good to get sweaty and exhausted...

10. SLEEP!!! It's good, it's good for you, everyone loves a good night's sleep. Whether 4 hours or 14 hours puts you at your best, get the sleep you want. And hey, dreams are cool, and everyonce in a while, when you're not being chased by giant spaghetti o's or watching your friends turn into Ted Dansen, something symbolic may pop up that you can use later.



So there you go, my suggestions for keeping things easy breezy this April. And I appologize for the *ahem* step by step detailed-ness... it just seemed appropriate. haha.

YORG!!! <--new word for frustration.

so. i suck at this. and by this i mean life. i keep having tremors. not good. short sentences. i need a hug. do you need a hug? let's hug. HUG IT OUT!!!!

WARNING: politicspoliticspolitics.

politics have taken over my life, officially. i provide the following list of my aprils events as evidence:

april 6: college dems meeting, anounce nomination for VP among much controversy. 9pm, political bowling night. total domination.

april 7: student senate election results announced.

april 8: winona county DFL convention to forward resolutions to state convention, elect delegates, present information about gubernatorial, congressional, senatorial candidates.

april 10: college democrat/college rupublican/college libertarian debate.

april 20: club fair, two hours at a booth with a donkey named libby. college dems meeting, final nominations for exec board, voting. EEK!

april 27: final college dems meeting/crashing of SASW picnic. or just a pizza party where i exhert my (finger's crossed) newly aquired power, go slightly insane with dick cheney mentallity, tell kendric he better do what i say or i'll come after him with birdshot.


is it bad that i'm excited? or that i had a really good time at what was probably the most tedious and crotchety DFL convention in party history? i sure hope not because claire jarvis and the parliamentarian arguing over motion procedure, resolution validity/relevancy, gender balance, and points of order was really making me laugh. simply because claire looks like this old man ventrilaquist dummy i once saw. that, and he had something to say about EVERYTHING. oh claire. you crazy crazy liberal. and hans is just hilarious. i love my new DFL grandpas. for some reason, though, rick has become the DFL darling. he's nominated for everything, and wins everything he's nominated for. plus when he giggles i think the old ladies just love him. too bad he's being dethroned...

enough! you're all bored, and at this point there are only a hand full of people who even know remotely what i'm talking about. so i'm done. don't ask me about this unless you want me to go on for hours about funding for higher education and the Domus amendment.

RHIADB

my favorite thing, other than being quoted, is having people make mixed tapes for me. and the thing is, i really need some new music. so here's your mission:

make me a mixed tape of songs that
a. remind you of me
b. describe me in some way
c. we have an inside joke about

i would prefer songs i don't already have, but that's not a big deal.

i just want to see what people put...


or if you have any quick suggestions, just leave them in a comment.

you know me, you know what i like.