i've changed. a lot.

i wish people broke into song in everyday life. i think eva and i are going to valley view this weekend, and i have the strongest urge to go there and stang in the middle of all the stores singing. everyone would be so much happier if random musical numbers were injected into our culture. plus i would be very popular.

i really wish i was in chorus right now. i miss singing. i really do. i talk shit chorus and my voice, but singing is the only thing i've ever been good at, and i just gave it up because boyd ruined my senior year. and i know katie is sick to death of my singing all the time like a complete idiot. from now on, whenever i'm alone, instead of talking to myself, i'm going to sing. it might be good for me. and i want to start strengthening my voice again, as well. it's really gone to crap since senior year. i haven't taken care of it at all.

god, i was so hardcore into choir, and i don't think i ever even realized it. the way i talk and use my voice now, i never would have considered in high school. and i've completely lost my ability to use all of my vocal cords at once. my yodelling is gone. my head voice is completely nonexistant, i would be an alto now instead of a soprano. on the other hand, my vibratto is actually stronger and i have a lot more control, but the tone just isn't as clean. i don't know, it just seems like since i quit choir i'm a completely different person, and i don't really have a "thing" anymore.

time to do some discovery.

it's snowing right now.

AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

i found this on the web today and nearly had a heart attack.
ask me about it.

coming soon, the adventures of super bitch

angry angry angry

i hate people sometimes. but only certain people. i really wish i could have seen everyone this weekend, but there were a couple people who made that impossible by just being really difficult. i don't know why people feel the need to create drama, but it's just so unnecessary. WHO NEEDS IT!?!?!

bah. i just hope christmas break is less stressful.


i registered for my classes yesterday. i'm not really excited about next semester. 18 credits, it's going to be tough. at least it's mostly classes for my major. bleh.

i'm actually shy around new people...

emily maguire is a big dumb ass. that's right, not only do i have one, but i am one. i think that saturday night i proved that to my friends from home once and for all. now that i think about it, i don't know if ass is the right word for this situation. bafoon. there we go. you'd think i'd be out of the mindset that i need to impress people beyond belief when i meet them, but that's just not the case.

we went downtown to get dinner and go ice skating at millenium park. harmless, no? dinner at bennigan's, and jenni shows up with her friend pat. nothing huge, i hung out with him a couple times in high school. but i decide that because pat is relatively good looking and a genuinely nice guy i need to be super hilarious and witty. and that would have been cool, except that's not what i did.

we finished dinner, after i had spilled water all over nick and shamelessly flirted with the waiter, and walked to the park. found out that skating wasn't worth the wait, so we went up and walked around for a while, and took some really touristy pictures in front of the bean. i hate looking like a tourist in my own city, but it was fun. and then i started dancing. there was no music, just felt like dancing. i was slurring my speech, babbling incoherently, and yelling random things about taking pictures. so walked over over to the band shell for a little while, where pat called me out on not being able to stand still, so i started doing the flashdance maniac dance. i don't know what the hell was wrong with me. everyone probably thinks i'm drunk. or at least pat, he's like "that girl's changed a lot since freshman year."

so yah, that was saturday. nothing else really stands out from break, it was pretty standard.





RENT was amazing. amazing. amazing.

boo on nosek

it's very lonely right now in winona. i have to leave for class in 45 minutes, but i have nothing to do until then. i finished the checklist, i'm all packed, the onyl things that aren't in my car are the things i'm going to need before i head out. all that's left is to go to this stupid bio lecture, then make the long drive home.

i hate driving alone for this long. i need to be around people. granted, i get to catch up on my horrendous singing and thinking, but i need to talk. gah. listening to free bird really isn't helping. hold on a sec...

that's more like it. there was a lot more money in my bank account than i thought there would be, it was really nice. i know that i can buy christmas presents for my family. i really shouldn't bblow through it too fast, though, i still have the rest of the semester. i can't start working until next semester when i get my new schedule, anyway.

so i got my access code yesterday, drama free. it was really nice. and i never ever have to see becky mcconnell again. that lady hates me, and the feeling's pretty mutual.

i just can't wait to see frank, and laurel, and amanda, and nick, and tom, and smurph, and deanna, and my puppies. yarg.

i've been alone in this room on the weekend several times, but for some reason it just feels really really empty right now. like when i moved out of 708 at the end of last year. plus it's gorgeous outside, and i'd much rather be out walking the lake with eva and nick, but i thought i had more to do. i guess not.

well, back to me moping and listening to crappy music. i'm saving the good stuff for the car.

weekend at bernie's

it's really cold in my room right now. i don't know how i feel about that.

eva and i went shopping in LaCrosse today. i bought my new favorite thing... it's a brown vest with a faux fur trimmed hood, and his name is bernie.

i am currently wearing bernie, and loving every second of it.

that's all i'm giving you for now because my fingers are really cold, and i want to go watch a movie.

princess andrea

i haven't updated in a while. i don't think i really have anything new to say. i can't remember if i've posted anything about the living situation for next year. it's going to be katie, carla, andrea and i in a two bedroom, two bathroom apartment at Eastlake. they're really nice buildings, and i'm excited about it, but i wish we could have gotten the 4 bedroom we had hoped for.
the back of my ear is really itchy. there must be more snow coming. yah, i have one of those old lady things, but instead of my bunyon throbbing, the back of my ear itches when it's going to snow. if it's going to rain. then the sides of my fingers itch.
andrea almost went to her microbiology class wearing katie's tiarra yesterday. she had put it on as a joke while she was visiting us, and left without realizing she still had it. right before she left for class she went to the bathroom, but if she hadn't she would have gone to class with a little plastin shiny crown on her head. and that would have made my day. oh well.

the resemblance is uncanny...

LOOK!!! it's a bird... it's a muppet...
NO, IT'S MY CULTURAL GEOGRAPHY TEACHER!!!!!!!!!!!

desperate rentors

i've been feeling not so hot lately. and yesterday i took a three hour nap after class. i need to get myself in a regular sleep/shower/eat/study schedule and really get on top of taking my vitamins and calcium supplements and drinking water and not eating shit all the time. but i have absolutely no motivation to do these things. i have no willpower, no drive to do any of this stuff, and i don't know how to get it. oh well. i'm happy and healthy. sort of.
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room draw is tomorrow. i'm really excited to get our apartment, but as soon as we get in i know i'm going to start planning. my christmas list is going to be like giftcards to houseware stores, seasonal placemats, vacuum cleaner, room furniture. god i can be so domestic sometimes. i'm really looking forward to it, though. and i can already see my room in my head. well, it'll all be final tomorrow.

alfred hitchcock owns me.

my cultural geography teacher sounds like tom brokaw if i close my eyes. it's really quite soothing at 8 in the morning. i might just lay my head down and let his stories of religion and culture wash over me, lulling me to sleep.
the only problem is i would jump at a really small noise and wake up with keyboard imprints on my face.
yarg, i keep having really strange vivid dreams and it makes me feel like i'm not getting any sleep at all. now the girl behind me's computer fan keeps going. that has to be the most annoying sound in the entire world. i have a feeling i'm going to be really crnaky today, and i don't have anything to look forward to tonight or tomorrow. wednesday is room draw, though. we'll finally know whether or not we have our apartment at eastlake. i just want to have it and be over with. i don't know what we'll do if they're full. it shouldn't be too bad having a two bedroom, katie and i are used to sleeping in the same room and with two other rooms in the house it won't be an issue of not being able to do anything after she goes to sleep. i was just hoping to have my own room for the firt time in 2 or 3 years. i saw the 3 in that, because in my room at home i don't feel that i'm alone. i always get an eerie feeling that someone else is there or watching me. i've gotten to the point where i don't EVER open my curtains because i'm afraid someone is going to be sitting on the trinkos roof watching me.
i just got vertigo. is that bad? at least i think it was vertigo. i've never had it before, but this is what i imagine it feels like. maybe i'm just getting some warped form of tunnel vision. i don't know, i need to be taking more notes. i have a test on wednesday.

katie, i knew you were dirty!!!

OH
MY
GOD
i don't even know how to start this. we went to chippendales tonight. i was really kind of shy about the whole thing at first, really nervous that some ugly nasty sweaty man was going to grind all over me. well, they did. except for the ugly nasty part. two really hot men danced on top of me, and i loved it.

the one with the short hair and tattoos is named chris and he's really hot and kissed me on the top of my head after rubbing his "area" in my face. of course, i grabbed his ass and stuck a dollar in his underwear at the same time, and he smelled REALLY good. the whole night was hilarious, though. eva got four lap dances and 3 kisses, carla got a grind from chris, and then there's katie. right from the start katie fell in love with a really nerdy looking guy named nick with spiky black hair and glasses. so eva, carla and i made it our mission to get her a lap dance from him. and we did. he braced himself on her chair, straddled her, and did an amazing impression of a caterpillar all up and down her body, then kissed her on the temple. i don't think katie was really comprehending all the was happening, but knew enough to GRAB HIS THIGHS AND HOLD ON FOR DEAR LIFE!! it was glorious. best night in winona yet. oy.

HAZAH!!!!!

chippendales is tonight!!!!!!
it hasn't really hit exactly what we're going to be doing, but i'm excited.

thanks jon stewart

i just, in this exact moment, realized i hate politics.

i'm too angry to explain, and i will probably never be able to put into words what is going on in my head about the subject matter.

eva and i went to the bluffs today

karma's a bitch. a big bitchy bitch.

my mama told me watch who you do cuz karma comes back around, same old song
i should have listened...
my r.a. turk left a comment on andrea's facebook saying "hot costume, thanks for the candy." of course katie, carla and i thought that was just hilarious, so we were standing in the doorway talking about it. loudly. with direct quotes. when all of a sudden who should appear behind us? yah, it was just like a bad movie. i couldn't believe it. so katie and carla started cracking up and ran into the room, and all i could think to do was change the subject, so i asked him about our cultural geography test. i could tell he really didn't want to be talking to me, but i felt the need to act like things were normal.

we need to learn to close our door when we talk about people...